I can’t do this anymore.
Why would anyone want to feel like this. I should have know that you were going to be like everyone else. Bright and shiny, then when things get rough I become nothing.
I’m so sick if getting hurt. I’m so sick of feeling broken. I’m so sick of being mislead into believing that it is at all possible to be cared for just as much as I care.
I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t go a day without crying and you’re out running around and I’m so far from your mind that I could be in a different solar system.
All I can think about is how we always wanted to be closer, how we always wanted to melt into each other.
Sex was the closes we ever got to being as close as we wanted. It was always beautiful. How has the light completely disappeared from my eyes, from my life and it’s like I never Existed in yours.
How could you spend so much time telling me that I was beautiful, perfect, how I was an angel then nothing.
This isn’t right, and all I want is you. All I want is your arms around me and my head pressed into your neck.
I’ve given so much, I loved so much, it’s just not right.
I look like the asshole, I look like the crazy one, I look like the worst human being all because I loved you too much.
I didn’t know you could love to much. I loved you too much, and maybe you didn’t deserve it.
But I still love you, and I still want to give you everything. I still love you too much.
What happened to the boy who would go out of his way to make sure I knew he loved me?
How do I go from being your everything to everything that you absolutely resent.
Nothing feels like home anymore. When you met me nothing felt like home either, but then it did. Now, well now I’m homeless.
*releases 420 cows into a field* hahahaha graze it
- Azra.T, Don’t Wait Three Days to Text First (via bodypartss)